Peace In My Future

The past few weeks have tested me in so many ways. I was put on a medication that put me through a level of pain I have not experienced before. It was so bad that I rarely left my house and was not given relief from it for many days. I refused to even open my Bible once, which is rare for me recently. I struggle a lot with anxiety with my health and the fear of my pain worsening. I follow a blog that shares information about fibromyalgia and the post I read this week listed out what I should expect and should know about my sickness. As I read of a woman’s story she explained how she was diagnosed 15 years prior and currently has lost her ability to drive, work, and take care of herself. As you can imagine this has not left my mind even for a second since reading it. Everyone’s story is different and everyone’s pain is different but I personally have had no idea what to expect one day. I think for me it is so hard because I have so many goals and dreams. There are so many things I want to accomplish and do and it makes me realize that I most likely won’t be able to do everything I want to. But then I realized, who does though? Just because some people expect to be able to live normally it doesn’t mean they will. As this week is closing I have decided that while I may not do everything I had planned, I can trust that I will do everything God had already planned for me to do. While sickness is a shock to us it never is to God. When he created me he knew exactly what I would face and he made me in a way to be able to endure that. And for me that hope is what has helped me currently and i know that will carry me through life. Now as I look to my future of unknown I am sure of who I am in Christ and who my God is. So if you have struggled with any anxiety facing your future and what is next, rest in the peace that God will guide you and protect you always. 
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